I recently spent two months in jail on three counts of aggravated assault. I will spare you all the details (even though it makes for an interesting story). I was off my medication, very stressed out and not coping well with life. I can remember sitting in the back of the police car feeling relieved. I was relieved to just get a break from myself and life. I also feared that if I were to stay on the streets I would seriously hurt someone so I felt this was the best way to protect myself and the public. My story is not over. It is just beginning. I want to share with the world my struggles with my mental health.
But first, let me introduce myself. My name is April and I am a rageaholic. I also suffer from major depression, anxiety, PTSD and the one that gets me in the most trouble, intermittent explosive disorder. Besides all the issues that plague me, I am a sister, a daughter, a friend, a colleague, a writer, a health coach and a mental health advocate. I also plan on adding public speaking to my resume. It’s important for you to know that I am not my mental health issues, I am so much more than that. I have so much hope for my life. This is just the beginning-My rise from the ashes.
I have attempted to start blogging in the past. In fact, I still have some old blogs posted below. I wanted to be able to tell my truth and give out helpful, valuable information concerning holistic health…but I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready to be open and honest about my life. And I know being transparent and vulnerable not only helps to heal me but it also helps others who struggle with the same issues. By encouraging them to not give up…there is light at the end of the tunnel and by supporting them while they grow to understand that they are not alone. My goal is to help as many people as I can with mental health, body image, and self esteem issues. All of our problems are connected to negative thought patterns and behaviors and if we want to change it’s possible but it’s an inside, out job.
I am writing my own story and in the end I will have hoped to have emerged renewed. I have so much hope for my life. My story is not over. It is just beginning. My rise from the ashes.